to have someone as handsome as you pine over me.

You're such a good person. I know that.

I made sure to always be mindful with your heart.

I never wanted you to feel jealous.

It's an awful feeling like a rot,

the way it just twists and turns at your insides.

I know that aching so well.

I feel it.

Whenever I see others whose lives come easy

because the truth is, I'm not really a good person.

Pearl, I think I should just...

The reason I kept my eyes to the ground around other men

was never to avoid hurting you.

It's because I understood how lucky I was

to have your attention.

I may be a poor farm girl, Howard, but I'm not stupid.

I spotted you the moment you came to live with us.

You worked hard like the other farmhands,

but you were different.

You're from somewhere.