It took years for me to visit my brothers in Stockholm.

It was very lonely and frustrating.

The fear of being caught and being sent back was so strong

that I couldn't tell the truth. There were many consequences.

I couldn't be myself.

It was very painful.

Most people can't even imagine

how running like this affects you...

How it interferes with your relationships with other people...

When it destroys you...

There were things I couldn't say about my family,

that I had brothers in Sweden, and my mother was living,

because it didn't fit with my made-up story.

There were always restrictions.

Things had to be adjusted, held back and suppressed.

So, what do you want to talk about?

I'd like some medicine.

Okay, you're going to have to see the doctor, but I can make an appointment.

What's wrong with that? We talked about it last time...

It's about me being attracted to men.